i think i'm comin up with a cold. i'm like totally thirsty and i feel like all dry mouth and so forth. i should drink more water probably. and maybe take some vitamin c before i sleep.

i am tempted to write some things here that are really meant for reading by SPAETZLEGIRL. which would be wrong. cuz if i wanted to send her a message i should just write her an email right? right.

THE GIRL is being a great friend through all this. which i knew she would. i wish that she was more of a physical presence in my life, rather than someone on the other end of some email, or the phone.

THE EX suggests that i just accept my condition and move on. she probably is right, but its really just somewhat difficult cuz i DO feel these feelings, and i cant just switch them off.

and now, i think i'm gonna go make a midnite snack of some leftover turkey. mmmmm.... turkey....