why am i staying up so late? its 1am. i should have gone to sleep about 2 hours ago. so now i'm typing this with my eyes closed. thats just screwy.

i managed to hang out with my friend M for a bit today. which is good because if i didnt, i wont probably see her for a week or so. shes working many hours this week at her 2 jobs, and then on friday she and her roommate D are going to iowa to do some vacation at some colony thing. so thats cool for them.

i think that sometime i should talk to SPAETZLEGIRL more about what i feel. i wonder if she has any solutions to my feelings. its been suggested that i accept that she doesnt feel the same way, and move on. the hard part is that i do still feel strongly that a relationship between us would be a really good thing. she was saying that since we were apart for the thanksgiving holiday, i would have time to think and it would be good. well when i saw her, it was like yeah, i still feel strongly, and i know its not productive.

i'll get through this. i've been in this situation before, and i can get thru again.

i went a whole day without eating turkey leftovers. i forsee leftovers for dinner tomorrow though...

draw me something wonderful on my whiteboard