well i killed that fly. i finally found it this morning. i know you care.

i admit it. i watched survivor in its 3 hour glory. and yes, i watch big brother. oh well.

been doing nothing of noteworthy value today. just a bunch of work work work. didnt even do the weekly bbq with M. not that we had it.

instead, a few words of friendliness from me to THE GIRL. yes i know theres no current romantic possibilities, but heres a big ole HEY GIRL to her. she knows whats what, and i guess i do to. even though when i was asked earlier tonite online, my reply to "are you ok?" was "yeah" and "well, i've turned my heart off as a survival mechanism"
i'm guessing that some of you might be thinkin that i shouldnt keep in touch with her, as she hurt me, but the truth is that there is a good friendship there beneath all of the other feelings, and i want to keep it goin. i hope that someday she realizes the folly of her decision, and that someday we DO become more than friends. but, time will tell.