tonite was catch up on tv night. watched all the things that had been recorded for me over the last week ot so. i did not however catch up on the laundry that is piling up. i will need to do some tomorrow or else...

i am definately in the summer doldrums. i need to find that catalyst to get me out of this. i'm having a good time with my friends, but theres just something missing. is it religion? nah, i dont think so. i dont truck with religion. my spiritual faith is pretty well set. has been for as long as i can remember. i'm agnostic. sort of. i hold a belief in some god who i do name as God. is it the God of which the christian texts preach? i am not sure. all i know is that ever since i was a wee one, my prayers were addressed to God. does that make me christian? i'm not sure. am i devout? no. i know few devout of whatever religion.
no, my issues are not of faith. they are based in longing and loneliness, boredom and restlessness. of these, i am king.