as of today, i have spent 15 years working for the same company. sort of... i started with a company which was purchased by another company, but from the corporate standpoint, they kept all my years of service. so... 15 years... who would have thought it... i mean, especially after all my bitching, and moaning about work... but then, its hard to leave a job where you get paid really well and arent really forced to do a lot of work 70 % of the time...

ironic then that last night one of the people i was out with left a company because she had just marked her 10 year anniversary, and just turned 30 all the same year... she felt it was time to change things. little did i know that she also was having her marriage fall apart at the same time. but now, shes happy and having a good ole time. not that i envy her position right now, it just is an interesting juxtaposition.

i sometimes feel like my life is spinning out of control, like its about ready to just blow up. not sure why i feel like that. i'm guessing its just the effect of my swinging moods. not that i think i've been doing much of that lately. i know my life isnt where i thought it would be, and where i want it to be. but i know that i can fix that, i just need to be a bit more patient and work at it a bit.

or then again, maybe my life is a-ok and i just need a good night's rest