went on a mission today. had to help my friend M take things back to her now fully ex-boyfriend R. not a pleasant thing. we had to truck over a dresser and a few cds. i had to watch her deal with her emotions... which weren't happy ones. so we chatted a bit about it. and i think she'll be ok.
she will be better in the long run without him.

i have been sitting around waiting for a shoe to drop. i dunno if it will or not, but i fear it. yes. i like being vague. and it is a new topic from above.

i am being an idiot i'm sure.

you know the feeling you get when you realize theres a better way of doing something, and you cant do it again. no wait. need a better analogy. ok lets try this one. you know when you eat a really really good steak, and you know that you cant go back to eating worse steaks. well i have that same sensation. and i'm trying to go back to a more limited steak. and it is some what annoying. but i'm sure it will adjust eventually