at a point tonite i felt more alone than i've ever felt before in my life. all cuz i think i'm overreacting. feelin neglected by life. feeling like people are not there for me like i thought they were. just a sucky feeling.

i think i'm just dealing with the stress of the things goin on in my head with regards to THE GIRL. and now theres other factors. and i am trying very very hard not to be overanalysing and overreacting. i mean i am overanalysing and overreacting, but i know it. so thats ok. i just wish i didnt feel like i had no one to talk to. but i feel that i've managed to screw up some friendships here, and i dont know how that happened.

i'm just a mean, vengeful, needy, selfish bastard. but i'm also a nice guy. figure out that wonderful dichotomy.