i want things that people cannot give me.

why is that? is it a character flaw that i have? is the character flaw that i'm too much of a nice guy? or is it that i unconsciously pick the wrong girl for me. THE GIRL for instance. HELLLLOOOOOOOOO.... she's like 9000 miles away. maybe i should have picked someone in the same continent, let alone country.
or is it that i'm too picky, and that i aim higher than i can achieve. although in life, that should not be a bad thing. one should ALWAYS aim to achieve the best. be the best.

in other news, M's cousin K is coming up for the weekend. hopefully we'll all get to hang out together and go partying. M thinks K and i should hook up. i'm up for it, even though she does live in Iowa. but then again, it is closer than the land down under. i'm not sure whats up with THE GIRL. shes been somewhat less than communicative both via email and her diary. it sucks.

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